Coldrun Fitness - May 31, 2016

Over this past week, I've gotten started on various fitness activities.  Just a taste of each of them.  Preparing food at home.  Eating mindfully. Exercising. Tracking.  Usually just one or two of these at a time.

My goal: start fencing again in July.  Use this next month, June 2016, to build better habits.  And yet, here's the key for me: build better habits without allowing myself to dwell on or be wracked by the feelings of anxiety, shame, failure, and self-hatred that come with excessively high expectations.

So here's the plan: I've put together a checklist of good habits that I want to build.  This will be my new log.  I'll work on what I can, and try to gradually increase the number of things I succeed in each day.

But this is a long list.  I won't check everything off.  Hell, there will be days where I check almost nothing off.  THAT'S OK.  Contrary to what my brain wants to tell me, it doesn't make me a terrible failure of a human being.  Low stress, low anxiety, celebrate when I do a lot of these things, and don't worry about when I don't.

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Posting this early today and checking stuff off as I go.  Dunno if I'll do that on future days or just post at the end of the day going forward.

FFIX – Part 8: Ice Waltz

Summary: Stopped at Melda Arch, then traversed the Ice Cavern. Another tutorial. Or should I say – “Moogorial?” (No. No, I shouldn’t.) Black Waltz #1.

FFIX – Part 7: Teach Me, Mogster!

Summary: Small, self-contained session where moogles tutor me on the basics of FFIX game mechanics.

Coldrun Fitness - May 29, 2016

Walked today!  About 30 minutes.  Felt great.

Coldrun Fitness - May 28, 2016

Success!  My goal today was to eat all three of my meals mindfully, doing nothing but eating.  Not reading or listening to podcasts or watching TV.  It was a bit tough because I'm so used to doing other stuff while eating, but it really does make it easier to stop when I'm no longer hungry.  There's less incentive to just keep eating for the sake of inertia.

FFIX – Part 6: Sudden Arboreal Stop

Summary: Saving Garnet from the Evil Forest. Plant Brain. Blank’s sacrifice.

TW: spiders. Sort of.

Coldrun Fitness - May 27, 2016

Today's goal: log and keep to 2,600 calories..