Coldrun Fitness - Indefinite Hiatus

Quick update: I've shifted fitness stuff off-site.  This format wasn't helping me and after a couple of years, I'm calling it quits.

Still trying to improve my life in a holistic way.  Eating better, exercising, better home care and hygiene, better financial management - across-the-board changes.

If you're interested, you can follow these attempts on my new Twitter account, @ColdrunForward.  This site will remain active as I continue my unspoiled playthrough of the Final Fantasy series.

Thank you for following, and have a wonderful winter :)

Coldrun Fitness - Chipping Away

Summary: 2,530 calories.  Short Pokewalk.  A good day.

Coldrun Fitness - Morning After

Summary: Playing with a new FF playthrough-style format. 2,400 calories. Cooked dinner, yay!

Coldrun Fitness - One Step Back

Coldrun Fitness - These Boots Aren't Made for Walking

Coldrun Fitness - Presence

I want this process to be joyful.  Energetic.  I hate hiding inside myself and being ashamed of my body.  I want to become a physical being.  Someone fully there.  Not hiding.

11/2/16 weight: 271.6 lbs

Coldrun Fitness: Week Ahead

Coldrun Fitness - 10/25/16 [complete]

Coldrun Fitness - 10/23/16 [complete]

Good start to the week.

Coldrun Fitness - 10/20/16 [complete]

I really didn't think I'd make the calorie goal today. But when I got home, I was just conked out.  Tired as hell.  Fell asleep for a few hours and had a small dinner when I woke up instead of the bigger dinner I planned.

Good.  Note to self: when circumstances allow, sleep helps.

Coldrun Fitness - 10/19/16 [complete]

Ate more than my 2,500, but I'm kind of okay with that.  I ate less than usual yesterday, felt hungrier than usual today, and didn't fight that.  Didn't binge either.

Strangely proud.

Coldrun Fitness - 10/18/16 [complete]

Food Log

• Two slices of pizza. (700 cal)
• Mixed Halloween candy. (120 cal)
• Bottled mocha frappuccino. (180 cal)
• Steak/hummus bowl. (630 cal)
• Ice cream bar. (360 cal)

Total calories: 1,990

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Exercise

• About 30 minute Pokewalk.

Coldrun Fitness - 10/17/16 [complete]

My food goal this week: stop at 2,500 calories each day, as many days as I can.  If I don't stop, mark where I should've/would've stopped.  Track honestly.

Exercise goals this week: a couple of bodyweight workouts and go for a few long Pokewalks.

Coldrun Fitness - 10/13/16

8:30am - Today's goal is to stay in the 2,400-2,600 cal range, and stay there as calmly as possible.  If I start feeling like I'm struggling hard with it, loosen up.  Track it in this post no matter what.

11:00pm - Didn't exactly meet my 2,600 cal goal, but I tracked it honestly and just barely missed it.  Pretty happy.

Road to 267 - 10/8/16

Weighed in this morning at 267.6 lbs.  Not like walking/biking/eating from yesterday magically dropped me three pounds, but weight is weird.  Not going to worry about it too much.

Road to 269 - 10/7/16

I noticed one potential danger to the "day-by-day" approach I wrote about yesterday: if I'm not careful, it can turn into the kind of high pressure long-term plan I want to avoid. ("Take it day-by-day, NO MATTER WHAT.  OH GOD I DIDN'T TAKE IT DAY-BY-DAY TODAY. ALL IS LOST!")

Going to try staying flexible, staying calm.  If I feel like taking on a small project, or small goal, that's okay too.  This is just what I'm doing for now.

Road to 269 - 10/6/16

I checked my weight this morning.  270.2 lbs.

To be honest, I'm scared. I hate how I feel, how I look, how easily I get winded.  Tried for so long to make adjustments only to give up so soon after.

There's no plan that can help me.  There's no long term strategy I can count on.  I have zero confidence that if I want to do something over the course of a week, I'll be able to follow-through.  None.

I'm currently around 270 pounds.  Let's see if I can get to 269 somehow.  Make a couple of better food choices today.  Go for a little bit of exercise.

I can do that much.  I think I can.

Coldrun Fitness - 9/23/16

Coldrun Fitness - 9/13/16

Coldrun Fitness - 9/12/16