My goal: start fencing again in July. Use this next month, June 2016, to build better habits. And yet, here's the key for me: build better habits without allowing myself to dwell on or be wracked by the feelings of anxiety, shame, failure, and self-hatred that come with excessively high expectations.
So here's the plan: I've put together a checklist of good habits that I want to build. This will be my new log. I'll work on what I can, and try to gradually increase the number of things I succeed in each day.
But this is a long list. I won't check everything off. Hell, there will be days where I check almost nothing off. THAT'S OK. Contrary to what my brain wants to tell me, it doesn't make me a terrible failure of a human being. Low stress, low anxiety, celebrate when I do a lot of these things, and don't worry about when I don't.
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Posting this early today and checking stuff off as I go. Dunno if I'll do that on future days or just post at the end of the day going forward.
Food prepared at/from home (not eating out)
[ ] - breakfast
[ ] - lunch
[ ] - dinner
[ ] - snacks
Mindful eating
[ ] - breakfast
[ ] - lunch
[ ] - dinner
Tracking
[x] - tracked food at all
[ ] - tracked calories under 3,000 (not mindless binge)
[ ] - tracked calories under 2,600
Food Log
- Bottled vanilla frappuccino. (200 cal)
- Chipotle burrito bowl with white rice, steak, vegetables, mild salsa, cheese, guacamole. (960 cal)
- Smores frappuccino. (330 cal)
- Chicken sandwich with cheese, onion rings. (1,180 cal)
- Hershey kisses. (400 cal)
Exercise
[ ] - cardio
[ ] - strength/bodyweight
Supporting habits
[x] - brush teeth after last time eating
[x] - clean dishes
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TOTAL: 3
