It's hard to describe. It's not a simple craving. I've had those before, usually for a specific food type. This is deeper. I've written about it before - it's a combination of hunger with a feeling of things in my life simply not going right, the feeling that they'll never be right. A desire to give up, and the satisfaction of doing so.
I haven't gotten that feeling this strong in the last few weeks. Binge ate, fell asleep briefly watching YouTube videos, and woke up. Went back to my to-do list. Cleaned my apartment. Wrote this blog. Am about to play some Final Fantasy VII - Crisis Core. Spoke to my family.
It's not easy to deal with the urge to give up. It'll come. I'll try to deal with it better in the future than I did this afternoon, but I'm proud of how I handled the aftermath.
Moving on.
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Diet
- Honey Nut Cheerios and milk, and a nectarine. (500 cal)
- Chipotle burrito bowl with white rice, steak, vegetables, cheese, tomato salsa, guacamole. (1,000 cal)
- Bottled mocha frappuccino. (180 cal)
- Fries, crackers, ice cream, chicken nuggets. (???? cal)
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Exercise: None.
